Monday, August 13, 2012

Back to Life, Back to Reality...

I got my hair cut.

Big deal? Nah, not really.  But the style I got kinda is, at least for me.  I got a bit of a graduated bob, that hits me right at my jawline.  Why do I care about how long my hair is?  

Because my jawline has resurfaced!

I can now rock this cut and have it look good.  Instead of focussing attention on my double chin, its focussing attention on my jawline!

This weekend I began to really see myself in the mirror (uh and the reflection in the glass doors of Dave's Battletech Minis cupboards.  I really need to get a full length mirror already!) and began to really take in the changes that my body is going through.

My shoulders and arms are much more square, instead of rounded and soft.  They look strong, even though plank variations still give me a tough time.  My neck is smaller, and I can begin to see the definition of my collarbone.  I'm standing straighter, with purpose and strength.  I'm holding my head a bit higher.

Full body wise, my stomach is flatter, my butt be smaller, and I can stand on one leg and do a single leg squat.  Its "cray cray"!  I can see my body shape, turns out I'm somewhere between a pear and an hour glass figure....these hips don't lie baby!

Most of all though, I "myself".  Not necessarily like what I used to be like when I was smaller before, but I feel more in touch with who the essence of me is.  She's strong, determined and totally kicks ass!  I feel spunkier, funkier, which is also reflected in my haircut.  I need some new product though to play around with it!  That *is* something I used to love in high school....getting a shorter 'do and using product and having fun with it!  Bed Head is still one of my favourite products. I'm still red as far as colour goes and I don't see that changing anytime soon, though I think I might try a bit of turquoise underneath my bangs for fun.

My perception on this journey is beginning to change.  It's not just about getting healthier because of the repercussions of what would happen to me if I didn't change anything.  Now, I'm more excited to be able to DO things.  To be able to push myself and see how far I can go.  Jump higher, run faster, do a pushup (still struggling with this!).  The clothes are gonna be fun, but also just feeling--no--BEING a healthy, normal person is going to be amazing.  I'm gaining control of my life, my health, and my future.  I can see a difference in my work ethic and my stamina.  I feel GREAT!

1 comment:

  1. Very, very proud of you, and I feel a little in awe. You are making an amazing life change that encompasses so many avenues that are leading you to the new YOU. xox